6/11/13

Perceptions

Why is it that I can feel grungy, chubby, and gross and Trevor thinks I'm beautiful?

Why is it that we can parallel the same day and mine was good and yours was bad?

Why is it that some days all I want is to spend every moment with my children and others I can't wait until bedtime?

Why is it that to some a task seems impossible, but to others it seems routine?

Why is it that one person can see a messy house as dirty and another can see it as a busy mom spending time with her kids?

Why is it that I can feel out of control of my kids and those around me think I'm doing great?

(Or what I hate...) Why is it that I can feel in control of my kids and I think those around me think they're out of control- so then I feel out of control of them?

Why is it that I can have the same friends yesterday, today, and tomorrow, but if I perceive them as perceiving me in a different way, suddenly I don't feel as comfortable being myself any more? 

Why is it that I am eternally a beautiful daughter of God, but if I lose sight of that, my perception of myself can change so quickly?

Why is it that we know it is all about the perceptions we pick but there are days and times that we perceive the worst? We assume we're chunky, ugly, out of shape, disorganized, snappy, and mean- when really we're child bearing women that are putting our children and our husbands first and experiencing never ending sleepless nights followed by days and days full of teaching moments every second and are blessed beyond belief? 

Why is it that we assume we're bad wives, friends, daughters, sisters- when really those around us love us for what we do and who we are? 

Why is it that our perceptions of ourselves as well as what we perceive other's perceptions of us are- can change everything?

If we could just keep our perceptions positive we wouldn't be afraid to speak our mind, to live our beliefs, to be kind to all, to listen to the spirit, to be ourselves, to reach our goals, and to be true to our inner selves.

That my friends, is my struggle today.

5 comments:

Trisha said...

Sounds like you need a girls night :) My whole life is a fight to manage my expectations. Hang in there!

pmiracles_111 said...

Wow! That was beautiful and profound. I agree with Trisha.. Girls night sounds like just the thing!

Jenny said...

I feel like you are singing the tune of most women. Thank you for putting it in words so beautifully!!

I perceive you as a beautiful, fit, talented, patient, amazing, organized,thoughtful, charitable(beyond belief), fantastic, and greatest mother/wife/friend.

Hang in there.

Jenny said...

BTW...i sent you another invite to my blog. Did you get it?

Chelsi Lasater said...

That was beautifully written. I agree that most women feel this way. We have so many jobs to do, you especially, and for some reason, society expects us to do all of them while looking and acting perfectly. It just can't happen. We can't be everything all of the time. I think Satan uses this as one of his biggest tools to discourage us and make us perceive ourselves as failures while Heavenly Father wants us to view ourselves as beautiful daughters of God. Sometimes I wish he had a body so I could punch him in the face. ;) I love you and you are such an example to me of EVERYTHING women should be. Especially motherhood. I wish others could be more like you and I know that I strive to be every single day! Pretend I just gave you a giant hug and kiss on the cheek!